Yesterday remarks the second week I live in Jakarta. Yeay! It's only the second week though, but I feel like I should give my self a thumbs up. Not everyone knew that the first week is so tough for me. I don't know why. So here I am, pour you a tea of my two weeks living in a new city. My closest one knew it the best that I always love being away from home. I like to go to places, live on my own, although deep down I know I was decidedly a clingy person but always refused to admit it.
The first week is a disaster! I find it hard to adapt to this city, although my house and office is so fine to me! Whenever I got back from work, I always crying, knowing that nothing but an empty room will welcome me. I didn't bring any blanket, and my place has an AC on it, at night, it seems that my room feels colder than my room in Bandung. No joke! I can wake up suddenly and start to cry because I remember if I were at my home in Bandung, I would never feel cold because my parent would put the blanket on me whenever I forgot to put one. The first day of work is excellent, turns out the office has a great ambience and pantry, with a team that can bring you so much laugh. My mom fell from the spiral stairs that connect the first and second floor at my kost, she needs to wait for me back from the office, and Dad needs to go to Jakarta to pick her up. To let her riding the train alone is worrisome. Right after I said goodbye to my parent and turn my back against them, I started crying, again. I was so hungry, but I suddenly have no appetite. So I was crying until I fell asleep that night. 'This is not me' that's what I've thought. This is my first time being so afraid and sad to get away from my parent. Even when I go to Singapore and must stay there for a month, I was feeling nothing but excited! No homesick even for a second. I was so happy and almost didn't want to come home hahaha but now???? It's only Jakarta! But I have such drama already. My first hypothesis is because everything happened so quick and sudden. I was told I got accepted when I was in Yogyakarta on Friday, I got in Bandung on Sunday and didn't have much time to say goodbye because I need to start at Tuesday and I haven't got a place to stay. So I was in a rush, didn't had a chance to take a breath, and when finally I did, the reality comes abruptly inside me. I went home immediately once the weekend appeared. And yes, I got crying (again) on my way to travel shuttle when I get back to Jakarta. I never am such a cry-baby before. The second week was better after all. I knew that everything happened is just one of the phase I need to conquer. And I did, or maybe I think I did, I don't know. But one thing for sure, everything is getting better. I have a beautiful day always, back from work with a light heart, take a bath, do the dishes, wash my clothes, clean the room, go dinner, watch some movies if I can then go to sleep. I make it stay at the weekend and not going home. I want to get used to this city, so I planned to take around the city. But God! Periods came, and I can only do some deliveries to eat, stay in my room, watching movies, playing games the whole day on Saturday because Dismenore got me. I take my chances on Sunday, by going to some malls and buy things I desperately wanted. Put some sheet mask before I go to sleep. So everything is fine, and it was really a good day to start the week. As I write this, I still sit on my office chair, waiting for 5 pm to post some content on the company's social media. I laugh so much today I hope its a good sign. To everyone reading this, I knew it sounds lame, but really, everything will get better eventually. You can cry and feel down or failed but don't let it stops you from everything you do. Keep doing what you were doing, and hang on there! These two weeks seems short but feels like forever. A lot of changes I felt in such a short time, but I'm glad, as I can realise that I have passed one stage of my life and I can get ready for another one.
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